God created... a procrastinator who feels her life is more hectic than it actually is.

So it's been... 18 months since my first post.  I could list off excuses but you don't want to hear them and I'm too lazy to generate ones entertaining enough to type out- so let's not, and say we did, 'kay?  My 6 months in leadership are in the distant past and I have another 3 months looming ahead of me.  Strangely enough, that isn't what reminded me of this blog though.  Rather, I found myself once again ruminating on my 'Neither Ruth nor Esther' - ness.

I named this blog in accordance with the idea of looking at the lives of biblical women-
Ruth: loyal, dedicated, willing to work hard, able to recognise good advice, and strong enough to take advantage of opportunities.

Esther: personable, charismatic, committed, flexible, and strong enough to face (lethal) challenges.

 - for guidance in practical life situations.  While recognising I’m no Ruth nor Esther.  

( If I were any biblical woman, the closest is Martha...

Luke 10:38-42

Martha:  Teacher!  Come in, come in, have a seat!  Can I get you anything?  Water?  Juice?  The roast is in the oven and I’m just chopping up the veggies.

*Martha runs around in a frenzy trying to get everything ready while NO ONE helps.*  

Martha:  *mutters under her breath*  No no it’s FINE, Mary.  Just sit on your butt while I do EVERYTHING.  *aloud*  Mary, some help please?

*Mary continues to sit at Jesus’ feet as he teaches, engrossed and hanging on his every word.*

Martha:  *sighs and turns to Jesus* Maybe if YOU tell her to help me she’ll actually listen.

Jesus:  *sermonic smack down regarding priorities*

John 11:20-24

*Martha and Mary are sobbing uncontrollably at death of their brother.  Martha is informed of another well-wisher arriving in town *

Martha:  Oh, the Teacher is coming?  *scrubs sleeve against puffy eyes and rises to her feet*  Okay okay you can do this Martha, deep breaths, deep breaths.
*Mary continues sobbing while Martha goes to meet Jesus* 

Martha:  Hey.  I know You would’ve done something if you’d been here but-  *shrugs self-depreciatingly* -life kind of sucks sometimes.

Jesus:  Your brother will rise again.

Martha:  *trembling smile* Yeah I understand all that.  *eyes beginning to pool with tears again*  I guess I’ll see him again someday.

Jesus:  No, you completely missed the point.  I'm, like, GOD remember?

John 12

Martha:  Yup, just providing sustenance for the important people.  

...Though Martha was much more assertive than me.  I'm more of a fuming quietly kinda gal. )

So this blog was/is a way to sort my thoughts about where I am and where I should be.  I've been stagnating in life and maybe this will help to get me back writing at least, and to develop skills/understanding/direction at best.

Hopefully you'll hear from me again in less than 18 months.  

Cheerio for now!

In the beginning...

For the next 6mths I’ll be doing something I haven’t done before… be a leader in my workplace.  This blog is my attempt to make sense of my new role in relation to my belief structure, and a place to store thoughts and research. 

WARNING: This will probably bore you to tears.  I’d love if it was helpful, inspiring, or entertaining to someone in some way, but that is not my goal.  More than anything I’m using this process to flex my writing muscles and see how God wants me to deal with this latest curveball.

Let the experiment begin…