God created... a procrastinator who feels her life is more hectic than it actually is.

So it's been... 18 months since my first post.  I could list off excuses but you don't want to hear them and I'm too lazy to generate ones entertaining enough to type out- so let's not, and say we did, 'kay?  My 6 months in leadership are in the distant past and I have another 3 months looming ahead of me.  Strangely enough, that isn't what reminded me of this blog though.  Rather, I found myself once again ruminating on my 'Neither Ruth nor Esther' - ness.

I named this blog in accordance with the idea of looking at the lives of biblical women-
Ruth: loyal, dedicated, willing to work hard, able to recognise good advice, and strong enough to take advantage of opportunities.

Esther: personable, charismatic, committed, flexible, and strong enough to face (lethal) challenges.

 - for guidance in practical life situations.  While recognising I’m no Ruth nor Esther.  

( If I were any biblical woman, the closest is Martha...

Luke 10:38-42

Martha:  Teacher!  Come in, come in, have a seat!  Can I get you anything?  Water?  Juice?  The roast is in the oven and I’m just chopping up the veggies.

*Martha runs around in a frenzy trying to get everything ready while NO ONE helps.*  

Martha:  *mutters under her breath*  No no it’s FINE, Mary.  Just sit on your butt while I do EVERYTHING.  *aloud*  Mary, some help please?

*Mary continues to sit at Jesus’ feet as he teaches, engrossed and hanging on his every word.*

Martha:  *sighs and turns to Jesus* Maybe if YOU tell her to help me she’ll actually listen.

Jesus:  *sermonic smack down regarding priorities*

John 11:20-24

*Martha and Mary are sobbing uncontrollably at death of their brother.  Martha is informed of another well-wisher arriving in town *

Martha:  Oh, the Teacher is coming?  *scrubs sleeve against puffy eyes and rises to her feet*  Okay okay you can do this Martha, deep breaths, deep breaths.
*Mary continues sobbing while Martha goes to meet Jesus* 

Martha:  Hey.  I know You would’ve done something if you’d been here but-  *shrugs self-depreciatingly* -life kind of sucks sometimes.

Jesus:  Your brother will rise again.

Martha:  *trembling smile* Yeah I understand all that.  *eyes beginning to pool with tears again*  I guess I’ll see him again someday.

Jesus:  No, you completely missed the point.  I'm, like, GOD remember?

John 12

Martha:  Yup, just providing sustenance for the important people.  

...Though Martha was much more assertive than me.  I'm more of a fuming quietly kinda gal. )

So this blog was/is a way to sort my thoughts about where I am and where I should be.  I've been stagnating in life and maybe this will help to get me back writing at least, and to develop skills/understanding/direction at best.

Hopefully you'll hear from me again in less than 18 months.  

Cheerio for now!